August 8, 2009

  • dear mom

    dear mom,

    please don’t call me any more.  It has gotten to be much too painful.  All of your lies have hurt me deeper than you can imagine.  You have gotten what you wanted and you do not care about the cost.  I do not want what should be mine in the end.  All I want if everything you did to me to go away, and money can fix anything.  I promised when i left many years ago to always keep in touch, but you have turned me away with your lies and decpeption.  I know that you have been abused for many years and you have learned to be a survivor, but I can not endure the lies anymore.  You are old and sick and riddled with cancer and you have put in me in a situation where I can no longer feel bad for you, time is running out and I can tell by how you look at me and speak to me that we will never fix our relationship.  You will take your lies to the grave and I will carry the burden of your lies for the remainder of my life.  No matter how much I try to let it affect my life, I see the hurt that I carry seep into my daughter’s soul, and for that dear mom, may you burn in hell.  P.S.  I am not that bad, I do the best that I can.

    ..:: askdante

August 5, 2009

  • I think I am moving on…….

    after months of no blogs, no comments and no visits to Xanga I returned to give a final try……it don’t give me that feeling that it has provided in the past……maybe it is the users, maybe the weather, or maybe it is juts me……..but I am pretty sure at this point that I will not be returning……possibly to read in the future, but not much else…….it has been a pleasure knowing all of you……best of luck in everything you do……..my official obit will be soon and my final post.

    ..:: dante

August 2, 2009

  • Some Long Overdue Updates….

    I have been well, not that any on eis asking, but for those that are curious…I have been busy but well…….procrastination has kept away form Xanga and so many other things.

    It is hot as hell here in the loely Garden State.  It feels like it has been raining for months, and the humidity and the bugs are getting worse……I always thought the rain makes less humid, it certinaly has not felt that way.
    The Economy:  is shitty and has also affected me personally.  I am working (Parise the Lord) but there is always constant worry.  I am confident that the jump for finance to healthcare that I made a few years ago is the main reason why I am employed.  My employer has decided to forgo COLA raises for 2009, and increase the cost of my medical covergae, so for the first time in 17 years, I am making less money that I have in the previous year.  
    Economic side note:  This could be far worse, a dear friend working in accouts payable for  alarge bank lost his job more than 1 year ago and last I heard was happy to be working as a secuirty gurad at Yankee Stadium.  That is how tough the job market is in New York.
    My brother is back form rehab and happily living at home with my parents.  40 years old, no job, no car, no license, no insurance…..and so clean form drugs…..my mother is so proud.  I hope the lies that she told and stood behind were worth it her in the end, it may seem like she won, her little buy is clean, but her relationship with me will never be the same.  I am happy he is clean, I just wish it was done sooner and the burden of the lies did not fall on the wrong people.  Now I know what they mean when they say drugs ruin families.  
    It looks like one of the major problems with the in-laws is going away soon.  After 16 months of a marriage that should not have been, the Sis in-law is getting divorced.  Her husband is a total douche and he was pulling a fast one on the whole family since day one.  I saw through his bullshit 10 minutes after I met him.  Some men are just not the marrying type.  When are these girls going to learn?  In this case, I will just say that the clothes didn’t make the man. 
    Unfortunately, but predictable my Sis in-law is going to do whatever is necessary to drag this out and make it miserable for entire family, embarass herself, show no strength, diginty, or pride and be the fool and the bad guy in the end.
    I have also found it helpful to always be the smartest one in the room……maybe I am juts lucky that way, or perhaps have only surrounded myself with ignorant peeps, but being a fool has never been something that I am good at.
    After many years of promising myself that I am going to get more excercise I have begin running.  Not as often as I should , but I am happy to report that I did complete my first 5K a few weeks.  I ran the Westfield 5K and fisinhed in just under 40 minutes.  Not bad for a firt race, considering that less than 2 years ago I was smoking more than 1 pack a day for over 20 years. Next race is Sept. 15…hoping to sahke 5 monutes form my time.  
    Last and absolutley least, school is still going strong.  In 3 weeks I will finished with micro-economics forever….and 4 credits closer to the degree I should have earned 15 years ago.  Better late then never…….but if school is miserabel it is miserable x10 in the summer.
    That is all for now.
    ..:: askdante

June 21, 2009

  • it has been forever…..

    I hope everyone is well.  What have you all been up to? 
    It seems like not much has changed since my last visit.
    But still, it feels nice to be back, even if only for a few seconds.

    ..:: dante

April 22, 2009

  • What is your room like? Does it show your personality?

    Since every room in my house is filled with my wife or daughter’s stuff, the only room in the house that I would attempt to call “my room” is my office.  It does say much about my personality, but I do enjoy when I am in here alone.  It is one of the few places in my world where I can get some quiet time. 

    I feel like it has been forever since I have been here.  I hope everyone is doing well.  I have been very busy, work, school, and family.  But it feels nice to drop by and answer the featured question. 

    I changed the profile pic back to Vlad, for those that remember.

    ..:: askdante
       

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March 19, 2009

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February 4, 2009

  • MicroBlog # 1

    Today I was looking through one of those coupon magazines that they bundle with the newspaper.  I noticed quite a few five-dollar coupons.  I was thinking that if a product offers a five-dollar coupon, it is very likely that the product is too damn expensive in the first place. (49 words)

    ..:: dante

January 31, 2009

  • What’s the best or worst experience you’ve ever had on an airline?

    Three blogs in three days must be a record for me. I have a lot of stuff to do today and am having a dinner party for six later this afternoon.  So what better way to prepare then to procrastinate and play on the internet all morning.  My actions today should make for an interesting Sunday.  A Sunday that I have already promised to spend out with my wife.  We will see how that plays out since I am getting nothing done today.

    Worst Airline Experience

    I was flying to the Cayman Islands a bunch of years ago to meet friends already on vacation, I was going to spend a three days playing golf, and then my girlfriend at the time was going to meet me and we were going to spend four more days frolicking at the beach, and consuming fruity cocktails with breakfast.  I ended up with a window seat on the plane and this African business man in the middle seat, he spent the entire flight using his lap and mine as his personal office.  I swear he had his open briefcase half away across my lap and annoying the shit out of me.  It would not have been so bad if the plane had not been delayed on the tarmac for more than 2 hours.  So I basically spent 6 to 7 hours being used as spare office space.  It was a very valuable listen in travel.  I have never again sat in the middle seat, every flight since then I have booked an aisle seat in advance.  Another lesson from this trip occurred on the return flight.  never attempt to go through customs with only a book in your hand.  You are begging to have you balls broken.  I guess only drug dealers travel light.  Always struggle with your bags in front airline safety personnel as well as all Customs agents.

    Best Airline Experience

    Much shorter, but much much better story.  Move forward about two years.  Business trip to Lynchburg, VA.  I met a woman at the airport while waiting to board plane.  Not gorgeous, but certainly attractive enough.  I will leave out all the details to be a gentleman, but what you are thinking is exactly what happened 8 hours later in my hotel room.  I was single at the time, in case you are questioning my morals.  It is not really an airline story, but getting laid did start with a plane trip.  So I guess it counts. The remainder of that trip was uneventful.  We did speak again, several times, but i was living in Brooklyn and she in Southern NJ.  It was conducive to a future relationship.  Plus, who dates a girl that bumps uglies on the first night.  One-night stands, love em, but fear em.

    ..:: dante
       

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January 30, 2009

  • Accidental Premium

    I have just accidentally upgraded to Premium for 1 year.  It costs me 25K credits.  I am not sure why I was holding them anyway.  I almost post anything on Xanga, and when I do, it barely generates any interest.  I am going to leave the good blogging to the pros.  I am not sure what to do with Xanga Premium, but I now have it for a year.  I don’t feel ay different.

    Things seems different around here.  Most of the pople I would come to vist are not around anymore.  It like going back to summer camp in your 30s.  Its basically the same, it just feels different.

    ..:: dante