“Whatever dosen’t kill you, makes you stronger”
I love it because it true, we grow, we learn, and we are better for our exoerinces, no matter how awful they may be…..
it feels good to be back…
..:: askdante
I just answered this Featured Question; you can answer it too!
my dad being drunk and being a abusive cocksucker to me, my mother, and my brother………lucky for me he has become an old, weak, and scared old man……..see who gets the last laugh bitch….
..:: askdante
I just answered this Featured Question; you can answer it too!
Can a person bring a bad aura to a home and upset a mood long after they are gone?
That is what i would have picked as the question of the day. It happened to me on Sunday, after several weeks of avoiding my aunt (who basically raised me while I was hiding my abuse parents at home), she managed to track me down and invite herself over for Sunday dinner. At first I did not mind, but once her crooked smile walked through the front door, I felt my mood begin to sour.
It is not really any one thing that she says or does that annoys me, it is just her presence that existence that make my skin crawl……it is the looks, the leers, the jealous comments, the insistence on encouraging behavior in my daughter that I really dislike…..and if I say something or make a comment about not liking a game or the way my daughter is acting, she has to tell me what i was like when i was a kid……..
I think it is a combination of bad upbringing, exposure to my dysfunctional childhood, and basic ignorance towards everything that make her who she is……….
in one way I am very grateful to her for the safe place that she had created for me when I was a lost and confused child……….and for that I will always have love and compassion for her…….
but in others, I can not stand the negative energy that brings, the horrible memories that she holds for me, and most importantly, I hate me and my mood after I around her………after a full day of arguing with my wife and everything and nothing, she says to me, every time your evil aunt is around, you are impossible to live with for days…..
you know what, I AGREE…….but as much as you hate me when I act like this, it is not nearly as much as I hate myself for the exact same reason………
I need to write more….this incoherent gibberish probably makes no damn sense to any of you, but i feel better already….
..:: askdante
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